Imagine

diana-simumpande-197805-unsplashA fantasy world exists in my mind as I close my eyes to the complex world around me.

I imagine unspoiled rainforests with lush vegetation and cascading waterfalls untouched by the footprints of man. 

Beaches with waters as blue-green as a turquoise gem.  The grains of sand like the color of an almond.

There was a ripple of excitement which filled my spirit as I strolled along this unknown and untapped sandy beach that stretched for miles in either direction.

A desperation of freedom sweeps across my mind hoping to escape the clutches of this world filled with pain and confusion.

I struggle to find the things in this life which make life more palatable as I envision this life filled with so much inspiration.

I’m temporary released from the stresses of life that continuously invades my space.

Even for a brief moment in time, I find peace and serenity as I visualize this new colorful world.

In this moment I’m no longer bound but free to exist and focus on a world inspired by a different reality.

The purity of life seen in nature consumes my being. My senses are awake and alive using my vivid imagination.

Life could be so effortless from the limits of the concrete jungle where work and making money has kept us in bondage.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Silence

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Silence can be found in so many ways

Be silent, be still get caught in a daze

The mind is searching, go deeper inside

Overwhelmed by thoughts

So vast and so wide

Do you need to know why?

Silence requires you spend time alone

Focus more on the unknown

Let your mind travel in unusual places

Experiencing life and leaving no traces

Be silent! Be still

All you need is your will

Tune out the world as you go to that place

Breathe slowly as you enter that space

The mind streaming thoughts in this altered reality

No rhyme or reason, just acting randomly

Ignore the noise

Which may break your concentration

Cell phones can definitely ruin your mind’s conversations

Be silent, be still

Think deep in your head

It only takes time

You’ll never know what lies ahead.

Pat Fagan

The Crazies

You see them at work day after day

you try to avoid them,

Somehow they get in your way.

A ball of confusion

Don’t be under the illusion

They’ll ever change

Their ego has a wide range.

Making life at work so unbearable

Your relationship is irreparable.

To the point you want out

Because you just want to shout

But the wrong words may get in the way.

It’s a pity right now you’ll have to stay.

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide

Responsibility holds the key

You’re all bottled up inside.

One day I hope that you can flee

From the crazies that like to bother thee.

Striving for perfection

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Have you ever wondered why you keep making the same mistakes?

No matter how many times you tell yourself it’s a new day, I will change my ways, those old behaviors come back to bite you when you least expect it.

When it shows up you get angry at yourself because you allowed it to creep in once again. It can be emotionally debilitating if you allow it to rule who you are as a person.

We ask others for advice and we still resort to doing the same thing over and over again.

What’s that about?

We strive for perfection when it’s unattainable. Let’s face it, none of us will ever be perfect inwardly or outwardly. So learn to accept yourself with all your warts.

You can’t stop being who you are but improving your behaviors and the choices you make is crucial to living a better life.

The Choices we make

Everyday we live in a world of choices. Whether right or wrong, good or bad, we own it.

Every night I lay awake examining my behaviors and decisions for that day.

I tell myself tomorrow will be better. My goal is always to be a better version of the day before. Do I have relapses? Sure but I never stop trying. That’s what it means to be human.

We are imperfect beings on a trip called life learning and hopefully growing from our mistakes. If those mistakes are repeated, we get another chance to improve day after day, month after month, year after year.

So why do we make the same mistakes?

It sounds tiring but we are like children forever learning, and forever growing in mind, body and soul.

We have a God who forgives and accepts us as we are but nevertheless wants us to improve the quality of our lives everyday according to his words.

We will never be perfect but we can strive to be who we’d like to be. Don’t allow the mistakes of your past rule your day. Tomorrow is always a new day..

A Writer’s Nightmare

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Empty Notebook, pen in hand

Broken thoughts of empty words

No rhyme or reason

Senseless

Streaming thoughts of a mosaic of

endless pictures 

No single thought emerging

Darkness and frustration with 

Mindless words of nothingness

Going nowhere but in the corners of ones

empty mind.

Pat Fagan

 

 

 

Summer Blues

sai-kiran-anagani-209542-unsplashWhat’s going on with this summer’s weather? It rains more often than I can remember. If it’s not raining, we’re experiencing 90 degrees hot, humid, and sticky summer days.

I think I have the summer blues…

I wish I can say I’m motivated to go hang out on the beach. But clearly, I don’t want to shake and bake in the hot sun. Frankly, I have more than enough color.

This is the first year I literally don’t feel like going on vacation. I love to travel. It’s just one of my passions. But my life has been going through a lot more downs than ups lately.

I recently suffered the loss of my mother. It’s been a huge downer and changes your appetite for a long time.

They say “time heals all wounds.” I hope so because my mom was my best friend and a praying woman. God has taken her home. I know she is at peace. The memories we shared will forever be imprinted in my heart.

So my husband and I have been doing odd  jobs around the house which never gets finished. I guess we watched too much HGTV. I’m so tired and ready to push it aside so I can get some fresh air. I don’t want to see another can of paint any time soon.

Therefore we decided to kick back and go on day trips near home. Our first stop will be a long ride to Rochester, New York to visit my husband’s college buddies. YEAH! Sounds like fun.🤔

When life is pulling you in different directions, going somewhere, anywhere to change the scenery may not be such a bad idea.🤗

We are now approaching the end of July.  Summer will be over in a very short time.

Will I continue to let my mood defeat me?

I might act impulsively and do something else on the spur of the moment.🤗

I am so disappointed I have done absolutely nothing, not even turn on the grill. But it’s not over until it’s over.

Stay tuned as I ponder my next move…