Checking Out

woman on grassHave you ever felt like checking out of your day to day life for a time? I got to be honest, I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride that had me doing just that for the past couple of months.

I am here physically but not necessarily living in the moment.

After losing my mom last year, and dad this past August, I am in somewhat of a fog. The world is a little more empty without them and they are certainly missed.

CHECKING OUT IS NOT ALWAYS THE ANSWER…

Life at times can be rough, however looking for options to gratify your soul, to make you feel whole again is best.

I have to think about moving forward in order to shake that feeling of loss because as you know life goes on…

If you’ve ever been in my shoes you know exactly how I feel.  If you’re just going through the motion of everyday and not really enjoying your life, you’re really not living.

Nevertheless I’ve been contemplating different ways I can shake the feeling of just wanting to check out for a time because now I think I’m ready to move forward.

But how do I go about moving on when my mind wants to go elsewhere?

So I started listening to mindful meditation. At the beginning for 5 minutes then increasing the time as I mastered each time limit. It helps relax my mind and allows me to focus.

If you’re anything like me, as soon as I get up in the morning, my mind is on any and everything. It’s off to the races of what needs to be done that day and beyond.

This means of course I am not living in the moment. So, meditation definitely helps me  become more focused and in touch with living in the moment.

I also started listening to uplifting christian music which gets my day going in a more positive direction.

It certainly helps lift my spirit from gloom to more optimism knowing no matter what I face God is near.  I have to keep moving forward regardless of life’s pauses and trials.

Finding an oulet

But what I have found recently to really help me find my footing again is a book titled writing down your soul by Janet Conner.

Her book is about activating and listening to a voice within as you write truth about your hurts and pains. You have to learn to listen closely while writing down your soul.

I haven’t really been excited about reading a book for a long time. But this one has me captivated because of what the writer is asking you to do.

It may be this is exactly what I needed at this point of my life. I find myself writing in my journal pouring my heart out while I bleed my thoughts all over the pages.

I needed to find an outlet to express my grief and feelings that was hard to express to even the closest of friends.

This book which has been sitting on my bookshelf for quite some time was just what I needed.

I am taking my time to read it as I digest and hang on every word of this writer.

“Writing down your soul” is about really learning to listen to the voice that resides within as you write down the things in your heart that’s been hidden.

I find myself writing everyday to this voice within bearing my sadness and pain. I have also gone deeper by sharing experiences in my life which were buried all these years that I have now come to terms with….

If you are going through mind blowing decisions, life’s frustrations and pains, I recommend this book. I guarantee you will not be disappointed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Missing Mom

I thought she would be around much longer. Sometimes life throws you an unexpected curve.

The initial shock leaves one in a state of disbelief as you continue to pick up the pieces of her life left behind.

Some of us have gone through this experience. You’re left with a hole in your life that a mothers love will no longer be able to fill.

Sometimes on my way to work I would reach for the phone to call her as we talked about any and everything.

Now she is no longer here…..

Almost one year ago, I lost my mom due to a ruptured aneurism. She was 87 years old and went home to meet the lord.

This first Mothers day without her is difficult and weighing very heavily on my mind.

We were mom and daughter but we were also best friends.

She was special strong and full of spirit. A prayer warrior, mom was always praying for our family and others who had their battles.

Her death took our family by surprise because the symptoms showed up unexpectedly. She died within a week.

There is a lesson to be learned as we go through our life experiences.

Never take your mom for granted. Thank her and let her know how much she’s loved and appreciated because you never know what tomorrow will bring.

This Mothers day I would like to honor all the mother’s who work hard to take care of their families.

For those whose lost their moms, remember the good memories you shared.

Mom I miss you and you will always be in my heart.

Life without Money

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Imagine…what would your life look like if money didn’t exist?

All our lives we’ve been chasing the dollar to the point where we’re divided rather than united.

Start thinking out of the box…

Everytime you leave your home you are spending money.

What would your world look like if money was not the main focus of your existence?

Continue reading “Life without Money”

Are you working with the right attitude?

Before the morning shift of workers arrived for the morning, I was sitting in a hospital waiting room in Long Island.

They came in one by one, Doctors, Nurses, restaurant workers and others. However you couldn’t tell who was who until they took their coats off and reported to their various assignments.

I was sitting near the bathroom. A woman approached with a smile on her face and a cart filled with cleaning supplies.

We spoke briefly and her infectious smile made me feel very comfortable.

That particular morning, among other things, the bathroom looked like someone had a party with toilet tissue tossed all over the floor.

Her responsibility was to clean all the bathrooms in the hospital. I’m sure she’s seen some horror shows in their over the years.

I felt empathy for her as I realized all the hard work she had to do in this one bathroom that particular morning.

In my opinion, she had one of the toughest jobs that most of us would cringe at if we had to do it in order to survive.

However she probably doesn’t get the credit she deserves.

We compliment people on a higher pay scale and forget the ones who are clearly working just as hard.

Some of us complain about our jobs…I get it.

Trust me, I am not where I want to be but in reality alot of us could say the same thing.

Working with the right attitude

This woman made me want to shut up and put up with a job which may not be living up to my expectations.

How would you like to get up everyday knowing the job you’re going to requires cleaning bathrooms in a hospital all day?

I don’t believe for a moment this woman is living her dreams but doing whatever it takes in order to take care of her family.

What amazed me even more as I observed her was her pleasant attitude and relationship towards her coworkers.

I thought about this woman as I left the hospital. For some reason I couldn’t stop thinking about her pleasant demeanor as she continued to do her job.

A LESSON LEARNED

“Whatever you do, work heartily at it for the Lord and not for Men.”

Col 3:23

I met this woman in the most unlikely of places and I learned a valuable lesson that day. She exuded the right attitude according to God’s word.

There are many people who work at these jobs everyday. We see them at work and other places cleaning up the mess that was left behind.

But do we really see them…..

What we fail to realize, everyone has a role to play in this life. One person is not better than the other because of there job status.

In my opinion, most the people I’ve met who are doing these jobs are very pleasant.

How we treat and respect each other in our humanity matters.

When was the last time you even gave a thought or said a kind word to any of these workers?

CONCLUSION

Learn to appreciate where you are, be thankful for what you have and be kind to others who are not where they want to be.

It’s important to have the right attitude no matter where you are or what you’re doing.

The wrong attitude will stress you out.

For all those who are doing the most unlikely of jobs with the right attitude, I salute you.

We Were Never Promised a Bed of Roses

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God never promised

Life would be a bed of roses

Filled with sweet aromas

Like the gentleness of a flower

Blowing gently in the summer wind

Trials like thorns and thistles

Show up unexpectedly

Choking out life

Leaving one breathless

Aroused by the darkness which

Quenches the spirit

Uncertainty rushes in

Entangled in a web of confusion

Then light beats out the darkness

And we are reminded

Endurance gives us strength

As we persevere through hardship

Faith in God

Drowns out the darkness

Our senses are stimulated knowing

That better days lies ahead.

 

 

 

 

Season Greetings

celebrate-2953723_640Open your heart and open your eyes, watch the beauty of the season with all its magic unfold. The month of December creeps in at the end of every year with holidays and holy days.

Some of us celebrate with Christmas trees, tinsel and decorations. Yet, depending on your culture, it’s a precious celebration of your holy day. Whatever it may be to you, may you enjoy the season. 

The Hustle and Bustle

The Hustle and bustle of finding the perfect gift can be daunting. Online purchases has made shopping more convenient for people with time constraints.

Skip the trip to the mall and use the precious time you have available to spend time with family  and friends. Sip on some hot chocolate while enjoying heart to heart conversations.

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Home sweet home

There is nothing like going home after work to a warm home decorated for the season. In December, the coolness of the season gives you such warmth and enthusiasm.

My favorite thing to do is to listen to Christmas songs  and watch the Christmas shows on the Hallmark channel while I snuggle under my special throw blanket. What a cozy feeling….

Season Greetings

I wish you all the best this season and I pray for blessings for you and your family. May God direct your path as you continue on your journey to 2019.

Remember the best gift does not come in a box. It comes from above from our God and it’s called love. Please share this gift with others who have less by giving from your heart. 

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Here is a toast to a wonderful Holiday of love, laughter and good times with friends and family. 

As a Christian I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas…

 

 

Life’s Shadows

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 Life

Is but a shadow of yesterday’s, today and tomorrow’s

WHEN

You loose someone very dear to

your heart and sadness

engulfs your very soul, remember the

MEMORIES

Cherished for a lifetime

Where laughter and joy once shared

Are not shadows but remains part

Of your existence

Where 

Happy times rules

And life is renewed to pass on new

EXPERIENCES

To a new generation